It still doesn't seem real! I think of Cindy so many times a day every day and I just get this feeling that the feeling will remain. I so often think of calling or wanting to tell her something and then it's right back there in the front of my head that even though I can talk to her she won't "physically" respond. We are all trying to find our way, to deal with our loss but sometimes it feels so heavy. I know I for one find comfort and peace on my front porch or working in the yard. I'm thankful for the time of year that I can enjoy the outdoors. I'm thankful that I can talk about Cindy to others and feel so much pride about who she was and how she impacted me. I'm thankful for good family around me to love and support. That Mom makes my favorite cake and brings it to school so I can share with my lunch bunch. I'm very thankful for Sally and how she hurts right along with me. She allows me to talk when I want to talk and that it's ok not to too. I'm thankful for friends like Jonathan and Ashley who come to celebrate Birthdays and friendships. That they are willing to bring Emirie to spread so much joy and love with us.
So this morning....as crazy as May is I think of you, Cindy, and all those people that support me and love me and I feel thankful!! Miss you Sista!
My heart is very heavy - I wish I could make your heartache go away, but that isn't possible, nor is it healthy. The "new normal" continues to smack us in the face. And yet... we continue to have hope and to be ever-thankful for Cindy's life and legacy. Yes, we miss you horribly Cynthia!
ReplyDeletePulling from the motivational quote of the day today, my prayer is that we have "the vision to see obstacles as opportunities."